That “one” ex

No matter how many exes you’ve had, no matter the time that has past, there is always going to be that “one” who will always have your heart, no matter how hard you try to fight it. Every time you hear their name or someone mentions them, your heart breaks all over again. Once you’ve been reminded of that person, all the feelings you’ve ever had for them and the memories you two have shared, are brought back. The moment that you finally admit that you miss them, is the most painful realization- the realization that what was once yours, no longer is. You no longer have their heart, and you are no longer the significant person you once were to them. 

Thank you.

i’m not the same girl anymore.

From the minute you decided to up and leave me, i’ve changed. I’m not the same stupid and foolish little girl you took advantage of. Because of you, i’ve learnt about how heartless, nasty, and deceiving people can be. I’ve learnt not to trust and let people into my heart so easily. I’ve learnt that no matter how much you love someone, how pure your intentions are towards them; it doesn’t always mean they will feel that way towards you. You always had your way with words, you made me feel like I was someone special in your eyes, but it turns out that it was just manipulation at it’s finest. Thanks to you, i’ve learnt not to trust peoples’ word, only their actions. My skin only grew thicker, and my heart only purer. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger; watching you cold heartedly walk away and leave me there to deal with all of the pain of your deception; it only made me stronger. What hurt the most, was that  all i ever did was love you, and that still wasn’t enough for you. You took everything away from me, and i cannot get those things back, but that’s okay. It’s another lesson learnt. I’m moving forward and i’m not looking back. Your messages, your pathetic cries for attention, your lame excuse of an apology, all ignored. Like i said, i am no longer the weak, foolish little girl you played so dirty. Thank you for the lesson learnt.